Yesterday morning, I struggled to really get going. Despite this, I forced myself to get into gym clothes, lace up my sneakers and head out the door. I just wasn’t feeling as motivated as usual.
I got to the gym, and started my warm up walk on the treadmill. I counted down the last of the five minutes of walking before I had to actually expend some effort and run. I don’t know what it was, I was just not feelin’ it!
A few minutes into my run, I couldn’t seem to get in my stride. I couldn’t find my rhythm. My body felt so unenergized. I decided I’d just do a 20 minute quick HIIT interval run so this can be over with as soon as possible. Even that was hard for me to imagine doing, after only 3 minutes of running, I thought, “17 long, agonizing minutes left of this run.” My thoughts were anything but motivating. I pushed through each step, continued to place one foot in front of the other and just continued through the motions.
However, when I got to about 17 minutes, the tiredness went away and I was starting to find my stride. So I thought maybe this could be my hour long run if I’m starting to feel better. I quickly did the math and thought, “wait that’s 40 more minutes. That’s double what I just ran – I can’t do that.” Still chugging along, I soon found myself at the 30 minute mark – 3.2 miles. I was feeling tired, but I kept going. Soon I found myself at 40 minutes – 4.25 miles. I realized I was more than halfway to 60 minutes. Well at this point I just had to keep going. I grew more tired and at the 45 minute mark, there was no way I would “turn back” then. With only 15 minutes left to make an hour, I pushed through, played my favorite, most upbeat music and totally rocked out those last 15 minutes, even upping my speed again. I finished off at 60 minutes having reached 6.4 miles.
I love these moments. I run for these moments. Those days when you’re tired. Your muscles are tired. Maybe it’s just a yucky, lazy day. But you drag yourself out there anyway. And in the end you surprise yourself. As cheesy as this sounds, I think this can be carried over to life. We’re capable of more than we think. Sometimes we need to ignore our thoughts to push through an obstacle.
I started yesterday’s run out thinking a long run was out of the question. I was even a little worried about the 20 minute I settled on – that’s how bad it was. But instead, I pushed on. When I pushed on, I surprised myself. I did better than what I thought I could. I was tired but I pushed through. It feels so much more rewarding to finish a long run when I start off thinking I won’t even be able to run three miles that day.
I left the gym feeling euphoric and accomplished! I knew if I didn’t push myself and I just gave in at 20 minutes I’d leave the gym feeling regretful. “Could I have run further? Longer? Faster maybe? Did I really give it 100%?”
What are some of your favorite running (or exercise) moments?
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